Sunday, December 23, 2007

holiday season.. boredom..

it's great to be done with college but at the same time i'm left with nothing to do.. i'm bored outa my mind should i say? few things to do here and there and the big move is coming up too. hate moving with a passion and quite bored since there seems to be no deadlines coming up lol.. i'm too human.. complained enough about having too much to do before, and now not having enough to do.. argh!

hit the library close by and borrowed two books. kept in mind not to go overboard since i'm moving and have to avoid the hassle of having to come back to return the books. it feels so christmassy every where and i'm loving it even though I don't have any big plans. there was a bit of snow yesterday but seems to have melted away leaving slushies (word?) here and there..

the office christmas party was a blast, was great to see everybody so relaxed and friendlier, not to mention happier and merrier thanks to the never ending margaritas, martinis and the likes.. I, as always decided to stick with the food and just finished off with my dessert - a shot of baileys.. free drinks and i had only a single.. pathetic isnt it?

can't wait 'til after christmas.. i can feel some shopping that awaits on the other side. sorta miss the holiday shopping in lanka, however it feels more christmassy here and i prefer to be here for the holiday season. seems like everybody's celebrating it big.. has everybody already forgotten about the tsunami tragedy happened few years back hmmm..

alright time to start reading those books..

Here's wishing everybody a merry christmas and a funfilled holiday season!

Thursday, December 20, 2007

What a feeeling...

Yess finally done!! yours truly is finally finished with the four years of agony that she wanted to run away from.. wohoo!.. what a feeling indeed..
well anyways, it's time to start packing and get ready for the move.. hate moving with a passion.. but I think the feeling of being done and accomplishing something is a greater than that hatred towards moving..
time for some baileys baby...!

p.s. : the subject is to be read as how you'd sing the flashdance song

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

the end is near...

the title seems a little cliched sorta ohwell.. my blog front's been somewhat quiet since I was extremely busy and the usual frequenting of kottu and other blogs were on a break as well. as the year is coming to an end, four plus years of my college life seems to be coming to an end too.. do i sound sad about it? NOO.. i was waiting 'til this misery ends coz as everybody else I too was swamped with ridiculous assignments, reports and the likes..

the final project is due in less than a week. extremely hyped and excited at the same time peeing in my pants wondering how the hell to present in front of the whole damn faculty... why does only my program has a pre-grad project and others dont.. that's a whole another blog post of why on earth i chose this field.. so it's better left at that...

I think it's time I get some work done but i'm still doing what i'm best at.. procrastinating and watching re-runs of OC.. cute but cheesy..

Saturday, December 1, 2007

nutty professor

no this post is nothing about the movie, in fact I dont even remember what happened in the movie coz it was so long ago..

anyways the professor/academic advisor that I chose for my final project has turned into a crazyhead. He was quite helpful before however I kind of knew that he was so late in replying to any of the emails etc. since he was the best fit for my project I chose him. biggest mistake ever!

In the middle of the semester there was no way I could contact him to see what I was doing wrong and what the strong points were.. I was more interested in hearing where I have to improve etc.. had to send like five emails for him to reply and say sorry I have been busy?!?! wtf man you become an advisor to advise students, and the poor students are looking up to you and expect some kind of guidance to end this damn misery they are in.. you go MIA for a month and a half of the thirteen week semester and that's your best excuse?!!?

now it's almost the end of it he expects me to have everything ready as he had expected? and so now i'm in the hot seat coz he shows me the short comings which he should've showed ages ago and I could've improved and improvised the damn project...

argh why does everything happen to meee.... I'll be glad when this is over..

Monday, November 26, 2007

the matrix still alive?

haven't been following the NBA games very very closely but i am a fan of the fellas from phx (not the boobs but the suns).

The suns have been on a 8 game winning streak i hear and it seems to be going down the drain since the warriors today are playing extremely well and may be a little too good. I didn't even know that there's a game going on, thanks to the continious channel flipping I ended up on a dose of nba.

seconds to call it a night and seems like the warriors are ending the suns winning streak, and they couldn't play any better.. anways, is nash too old now or ellis' too young for the aging suns? oh well everyone has a bad day..

go suns go!

Friday, November 23, 2007

do you text and..

drive? It's crazy to see how many people actually text on their blackberry or cellphone whilst driving 100-120kmph. the reason I thought of blogging a bit about this was I was reading about this whole texting while driving thing and how it often causes accidents..

I had passed quite a few drivers who were driving with one hand while texting a message on their phone with the other.. this friend of mine does it quite often and it's scary when i'm in my friend's car sometimes.. I personally am guilty of reading text messages while i'm on a red light, but I do not text while driving. As soon as I get in the car I fix my handsfree gadget thingy and i'm ready to go! I try to keep my eyes on the road at all times.. as that article said.. it is a killing machine that we drive.. you are not just putting your life in danger but also your friends, family, and others..

so do you text and drive?

Thursday, November 22, 2007

duty calls you...

the one who would call me in the morning .. during lunch.. after work..
to see if i get home.. has to go away.. to a whole another country in a whole another continent..
the times we shared just hanging out.. numerous lunches/dinners and random coffee meet ups.. movies.. falling asleep at movies.. :P and everything else..
i will miss everything we did for the while you'll be gone..
may you be safe in the new lands you are about to conquer..

with all my love.. i thank you for all the care and the joy you brought into my life..

i'll miss you! come back soon..

Monday, November 19, 2007

unwanted babysitter

the whole living alone thing is great and i'm loving it.. no need to tell anyone where i'm going.. take the keys i'm out the door.. no curfew yet no specific time to be home at.. eat, clean, do laundry and do everything else when and how I want.. walk naked if i wanted to (not that i do that :P).. in other words i'm wthout a doubt loving it to bits right now..

but the mother wants me to have a room mate.. or my previous baby sitter aka the cousin.. it's not that i dont love/care for the cousin or nething.. i do, and i'll always will.. but i can do my own things now and take care of me.. have been doing it for a while.. and why now.. say even if i lived with the cousin and sacrifice a little bit of my new found freedom, i dont want that person to be my baby sitter.. mother suggests that the cousin go with me for dinner with my friends at night because it's too dark to drive back.. wtf? am i to take someone with me even if that person's not invited..

I know mommy dearest suggests these only because she cares and wants me to be safe etc. but i wish they understand i'm not a baby anymore and i have my own life to live.. and i completely hate to make my life a big brother watching episode, nor someone following me around like that tail jolie wears in beowulf..

Sunday, November 18, 2007

kottu time

the tiny little sri lankan restaurant in town (one of the few) wasn't even open when we went there today. the owner or the chef sorta guy just pulled in and opened the doors, and the 'open' sign wasn't even lit up. we were craving kottu so badly and the thought of lamb rolls appy was salivating our mouths before even going inside the restaurant.

Why do we crave for kottu so much and wouldn't mind driving more than half hour to the sri lankan joint that's almost on the other side of town... it's almost like our traditional food. I find it funny when friends or just acquaitances ask me what's your favourite food from sri lanka or what kinda food you often eat, first thing would be rice and curry for sure, and then is 'kottu'..

Even if today's kottu can't match for the good ol' pillawoos kottu and cheese rotti, this was heavenly... looked almost like this...


Saturday, November 17, 2007

Saturday Bliss

We've been wanting to do this for a while and I haven't actually done this before, so I was quite excited for this blissful spa hopping and was counting days for the Saturday even though we didn't have an appointment scheduled beforehand :D. Anyways so, my friend and I called up on Friday to few spas and it was difficult to get an appointment in such short notice and especially in the weekend. I didn't know that people go for spas this much.. coz i swear we called more than five places to get an appointment..

However, we were able to squeeze in an appointment in one of the spas downtown. It was quite high end I'd say but reasonable. Since I haven't been to one before I didnt really know wot the hell to expect. We were to go in this infrared sauna thing, it was great.. then shower.. then the one hour massage.. omg that was pure bliss.. euphoric. the hour felt like forever and wish it never ended.. so relaxing... all the back pains I had because of the stupid chair I have at work, vanished!

It's a great few hour getaway and a guilty pleasure I'd say... not so blissful on the wallet..
however.. I'd do that again!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

lost, toilet house, rain

Feeling very lethargic when I have stuff piled higher than me to complete.. too lazy to at least start on... just like gutterflower said I'd do anything to stay away from books..
weekly dose of survivor was interesting, but one of my fav's was voted out.. crappy.. oh wel i wont win the million bucks anyways..

y do i feel like a lost soul or some wasted space.. people who are closer to u get upset for the simplest thing that one would think they wouldn't..

while at work i was reading Mr. Toilet has built a toilet shaped house.. how gay to spend that much time, energy, and money on building a toilet house..

need to work on the academics in a serious manner.. i need someone to drill it into my head or something.. weather's been crappier than ever, and it gets dark so soon and the drive back home from work is horrible.. dark and pouring rain..

may be I should hide myself under the quilt..

Monday, November 12, 2007

A weekend ends

It always feels good to have a three-day weekend. I had big plans for the weekend. Especially to start on my final project that's due in less than a month. Procrostination is what I do best and starting the project was obviously the last thing I attended to this weekend.. so to start with I had a boarder line escapade on friday night with a friend of mine. gladly it ended at this side and we were able to sleep in our own comfy beds that night.

saturday came along still no sign of a project whatsoever, eventhough I had my equipment sort of laid out on the table. that's good for a starter now don't you think? drove for about half hour to see friends and pick some much needed equipment for the project. thanks to couple of friends i didn't have to buy those just for a month and a few. had lunch at nando's with my best bud, and another who was in town for reading break. then off i go pick up those stuff, go see cousin, go see my girl friend who I seldom see now. we did a little hair straightening session with her new bought straightner. it was the first time i completely straightened my hair. do some grocery shopping and drive home.. still no sign of a project.. saturday night was interesting, my friend was having drinks with his guy friends and got pissed for something off he drives over and was a bit of drama there. it's always good to have a lil drama in ur life now isn't it?!?

the morning of sunday I fix all the equipment together to see whether my network and the rest is actually working.. with some effort and twisting of wires.. voila! it is actually working.. me happy! off i go with a friend of mine, watch this hindi movie my girl friend recommended. it was alright, colorful as usual, and full of songs.. good for a change, as I haven't watched a hindi movie for a while. come home, sleep, sleep and more sleep.. haven't still started the write-up and there's more to work on the practical still..

monday being a holiday, sleep in! :D go for thai with a friend, do a little shopping come home and blog.. started the write-up and kinda clueless at the moment.. time to call the advisor..

a weekend wasted..

'til next time.. stay outa big trouble!


At times I wander why we are asked to do the stupidest assignments under the sun. I do understand and know that we learn so much from doing assignments, reports and whatnot. I'm someone who do not read prior to class, during class, nor after class. everything is right before exams and cram the hell outa it. so it's kinda good at times to have assignments to hand in, so that I know what's happening in class and what chapter we are on etc etc :D.

so regarding those stupid assignments... for example in this HR class i'm taking which is online, we are supposed to dismiss an employee from our workgroup (mine is completely imaginary), and has one part in the assignment that says:
"Make arrangements to “carry out” the dismissal with another learner in the class or with a friend. Do a role-play—it is important that you actually read the script to another person and get their feedback. Ask for feedback bla bla blah! "

do they honestly think that students are role playing to complete this assignment?!? r u kidding me? especially this one being an online class, and you dont have a face for any of the students nor to the instructor. anyways, this doesn't leave me a choice but to lie and fake it like no tomorrow, and write that I did the damn role play with a friend! yea right.. I completely understand the theory behind this whole role playing thing. students get the hang of it and it's easy when they step in to the real life.. it's understandable if it's a face-to-face class with a handful of students..

oh well... time to take a walk in to my imagination... sigh!

Thursday, November 8, 2007

fighting anorexia

While I was doing my online course discussion stuff after stuffing my face with rice and curry, I had the tv on and ET was on. I usually don't pay a lot of attention to it and let it run in the background while I'm on the computer.. anyways so tonight something caught my attention and they were talking about about this anorexic actress who weighs a mere 35KG. And now her tiny legs are peeling =S.. due to a side effect of anorexia.. holy :.. yeah it's the girl in the pic.. I felt so sorry for her coz now she's trying her best to gain weight and recover from her sad situation..

i used to be a stick and was a big time gastritis patient, and still remember the times my mom had to take me to the doc in the wee hours because of gastric ulcers and the whole acidic reaction thingy.. i used to be a gastritis patient not because i ever thought i was too heavy but because i used to share my lunch with friends in school and ended up not eating anything.. anyways, i'm over with it now and have gained one too many pounds and is thinking of hitting the gym but is too damn lazy..

on a more pleasant note, survivor is on tonight and this is it for the blog post because it's almost time for the show.. ohh there's an anorexic competitor in survivor too hmm!

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

FB and I

So this whole writing stuff on the walls, poking each other, adding numerous applications to the pre-templated pages, sending e-gifts to show you care etc. etc has been happening for quite a while now, and this bug caught me as well few months back. I honestly didn't wanna start being a facebooker and have been ignoring the tons of invites in my junk mail, but this brotherly friend of mine bugged me to death to sign up for this thing.. prior to that I had this hi5 account thingy, which is being ignored compeltely now with heaps of friend requests sitting there from complete random strangers.. I never was a fan of flikr, friendster, jaxtor or anything of that sort I dont know why may be i was scared of getting addicted..

anways... and yeah I got caught to that FB bug.. and fell for it.. oh wait not that deep though.. in the beginning I got hooked on to it, and was busy finding my long lost elementry school friends etc. checking up on what they are doing now, who they are with, schooling, working, have become pot heads or somthing! :S

as the time went by my addiction slowly reduced to a mere daily dose.. (compared to people I know who are glued to it) I plead guilty for checking my FB account at least once a day (not that bad huh?!).. and i do admit that it's probably as addictive as caffeine or nicotine or somthing, coz I'm guilty of skipping assignment and study time to wander around in facebook :S:S.. horrible..
i sorta do see the point of their existence, they help you keep in touch with your friends and make new friends etc. because you don't always have time to send emails to everyone, and this is a very convinient way of saying a lil hi here and there to say 'i'm alive and are you?'.. and it feels good to be poked by a friend who's seas away and haven't seen for couple of years..

but i'm quite paranoid when strangers add me, and all this while i didn't know that if i ignore their friend requests they don't know it (how uncool of me) until i read this article on msn yesterday (for which I can't find the link to right now). also i'm extremely paranoid to disclose or better yet publish my address, telephone no. etc (not that strangers are gonna come knock on my door, but who knows lol).. also, it's not just for teens and college students anymore. aunties, uncles, and also granmas are on facebook : woooot! yeah i know someone who's a grandma and has a facebook profile! (cool mhmm?)

anyways enough about time wasting sites.. it's still wet and ugly at this end of the world, and I'm yet to start writing my project which I wrote the proposal for a while back..

happy facebooking!

Sunday, November 4, 2007

The 5 Maroons

I wouldn't call myself the biggest fan of maroon 5. How I ended up going for the Maroon5 live in concert was; this friend of mine all of a sudden was obsessed about going for music concerts (as he hasn't gone for one before), since we bought tickets to go see Micheal Buble. And since we'd have to wait 'til Jan to see Buble he couldn't wait until January to go see a concert LOL, so out of nowhere I'm invited to go see maroon 5, in which I had no choice but to go (I'm not complaining or anything).

It was AWESOME! as I said I'm not the biggest fan but the concert was just GREAT! I attached a tiny clip I recorded off my cam, and few pics. It's probably not even clear or anything but yeah better than nothing and one of my favourite songs of Maroon5. Btw, Adam Levine was so easy on the eyes yesterday with his new hair cut (rather baldness).

Can't wait 'til the Buble live in concert!

Wednesday, October 31, 2007


oh yeah! it's that time of the year again. pumpkin patches, pumpkin carving, scary/funny/hideous outfits, trick-o-treating, candy, candy and more candy... It's been quite a few years since I've been accustomed to this awkwardly crazy tradition (so I think), and I haven't gone trick-o-treating once in my life, nor have I dressed up to look anything halloweenish. But have given out candy since I didn't want to get egged by the trick-o-treaters. So about this crazy little celebration, I think I read in one of my classes (few years back) about how halloween came about, argh don't wanna bore you guys with that (not the fact that I don't remember). anyways here's wiki's halloween for anyone interested...
People wish you saying, "Happy Halloween". But what's happy about that when the celebration is all about ghosts, skulls, the dead, blood, and darkness. What's so happy about scarying the crap outa people? hmm I wonder. However, I do think that little kids dressed up in costumes is extremely cute, but egging by those teenage brats aren't.
There are so many costume parties etc. happening in town and heaps of people (young and old) are in extremely interesting costumes. About sri lankan halloween, I read/saw that halloween is a big celebration in sri lanka as well, with costume parties and whatnot. Interesting how lanka is getting accustomed to the western traditions... nice.. i liiiiike.. highly doubt that I'd pay a visit to any of those... may be dressed as a pumpkin!

Monday, October 29, 2007

dedicated to you - malli

I call him malli, but he's not. Age-wise he's actually about 5+ months older than I am. Not related to me in any way (as far as I know). The term 'malli' is from what his parents/family call him, and I got used to it since he felt like family to me, or even closer. We've been friends for a long time, hmm since we took classes together and our special friendship is about 6 long years.
We had our ups and downs, you've cried to me so have I. Many happy times, few heartbreaks, but yet you and I have never fought nor have we stopped talking. Even though we live miles apart and see each other may be once a year or even less, we always have been able to keep in touch this way or the other. One person who's always been there for me, have had faith in me, and encouraged me in every way possible. The lamest jokes we cracked and the little inside jokes we had made it all the more fun and memorable.

He's someone I'll never fall for, nor would I secretly think the other way around. Thank you for taking care of me, being there for me, and more than anything listening to me..
I miss those hours long phone calls (that sent home five figure phone bills), in which we talked about everything and nothing. I miss watching movies, the movies we both loved. I miss those times we just hung out and talked about life and where it'll take us, and where we want to go and what we want to become.

wish you were closer...

I miss you!

Friday, October 26, 2007

winter's knocking

It's almost the dawn of winter in this corner of the world, and I hate winter with a passion. Having grown up in Sri Lanka, I'm still craving for the sri lankan warm climate, even though we grumble everytime we go out in the sun and start sweating like pigs. Come to think of it, we grumble for every weather, regardless of whether it's warm or cold.

anywhooo yes! winter's knocking at the front door, while summer secretly ran from the back door. I realized it this morning when I went to my car, already few minutes late to find out that the windows/windshield is freaking frosted!!! I had to switch on the car and crank the heater full blast, find my frost/snow scraper thingy and do the necessary so that I could see. Front and back both!!! I was screaming inside since I was already late, and so mad that the damn building is covering the sun. Sun wasn't even winking at my car, if it did I wouldn't have to be scraping at eight in the morning with NO GLOVES!!! and that wasted five minutes of my time, leaving me nothing but rush to work in the damned traffic and eating my bagel inside the car and trying not to look like I'm stuffing my face!

A colleague at work pops in this morning saying, ohh it's the first day of frosty grass! meh!

hmmph! may be I should find another parking spot. Or leave home ten minutes early everyday 'til winter ends?!?

Skin Deep

A friend of mine emailed this link to me. Check out this link to the "Skin Deep" website:

This awesome website outlines dangerous chemicals that are potentially hazardous to your health & the environment BUT can be found in your cosmetics, soaps, shampoos etc. It also allows you to check out how your current cosmetics hold-up to chemical tests ...which is awesome! I dont know how true these are and what/how/who rated these cosmetics on what basis etc. but it's worth the read to see how dangerous your daily usage of face paint is..

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

just a phone call

I know I shouldn't be getting my hopes up and everything, and I wont. But that was one phone call I was patiently waiting for, wonderng whether I will get a phone call from them at all or will it be just one of those things I applied for and never heard from. It was this job/training program I applied for and it's a big deal for me. And I need it badly, so badly that I don't know what I will do if I get accepted. And here I'm blogging about it without even getting accepted or anything, but jst that phone call for a mere phone interview has gotten me excited. So I scheduled an appointment for an over the phone interview with them for first thing next week, and hoping it'll all go well. If they want me for an actual physical interview I'd have to fly somewhere else, for which I'd be more than happy to do since I've never been there and it's an opportunity of a lifetime...

oh amber, how I love thee for that phone call.. wish you knew how much it meant to me.. (fingers and toes crossed!)

Thursday, October 18, 2007

life of mine... not

Yet another twist in my life or i wished it was a twist but the rents involved and made the choices for me which left me with no choice at all in my life. thinking back of how i had freedom to choose who i want, and how i cant get out of it now coz of my parents as they have come to love the other more than i do or more than they love me. i thought im the one who's choosing to be or not to be with someone.. and that is not a question that i have the power to answer for as the power has been taken away from me by the almighties. i thought i can at least choose who to spend the rest of my life with but hmmm.

as tears roll down my face.. i sit here and wonder y people dont understand and think of things the way i do.. this isn't wot i call life..

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

wet and ugly

summer went by so fast that i can hardly remember anything i did. and yet again it's that time of the year, when it's ugly, gloomy, and wet. love the gloomyness when I stay in with a good book and a hot chocolate. Hate the roads when it's wet and hate to drive when it's ugly. can't see anything, being the great driver i am (lol) running over little puddles and not seeing where i'm going..wet and ugly..

not my favourite time of the year..

Sunday, October 14, 2007

come back

no i didnt forget about my blog.. i remebered it at least once every two days.. just didnt have time to get around it and write anything.. nothing interesting happend i think, now that i think about it i dont even remember whether anything interesting happend that's worth writing about..

many outings.. many heartbreaks.. sadness and happyness at the same time.. and random desserts downtown were among them. wish certain thigns were different.. may be i should have kept my blog closer to me, which I think I'm planning on doing..


Wednesday, August 29, 2007

stage fright ?!?

Finally the project for the internship was completed and it was my BIG day today, the presenting..! the only thing i didnt do was in fact pee in my pants.. train me on a dance routine and throw me on stage i'll be fine, but presentations gives me creeps.. i was scared to the bone since the presenting was to be in front of the work people who are thousand times smarter than I am and they are geniuss!!!! few minutes before all I wanted to do was dig a hole and bury myself.. yes yes, i know i'm only the little intern and i'm allowed to make mistakes and they won't laugh at me etc etc. but omg the stage fright (or whatever one may call it) was insane.. I remembered what I was told many moons ago when I performed on the stage, 'practice makes you perfect' and I did practice couple of times by myself for an imaginary audience and yes it almost made me perfect but not quite... All in all I think I did alright, better than I expected myself. I can pat myself and say 'hey you did a good job (even though you almost peeed in your pants - but that's OK)'. The presentation ended up in a conversation between the audience and yours truly, and by the end of it I did know what I was talking about (surprise!).

It was a great experience working here.. it will surely be missed..

Few months left for yet another even bigger presentation... not looking forward but yet looking forward for the grand finale..

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

on the streets..

homeless people live everywhere and almost every part of the world regardless of whether it's a third world country or a developed country. which i found quite amusing or rather interesting at first coz when you live in sri lanka you'd think that in a developed country people would want to work hard or rather they earn money somehow and things are almost given to them compared to a country like our lil ol' sri lanka where it's 3rd world. for some obvious reasons and others not, i do not feel that much sympathy for the homeless in these developed countries, which has become a growing and a continuous problem. such homelessness has lead to drugs, mj etc. and they were given new injectors for their drug consumption. how pathetic and sad is that? in a way that is actually good as it limits the various transmitted diseases, but on the other hand this inevitably bumps up the number of people who are using drugs on streets and leads to the number of homeless people. it's sad why these people cannot go find a minimum wage job at least and rent a tiny place and live a happy life, when they live in paradise compared to how people live in 3rd world countries with no water, food, or better yet surrounded by deserts.. There are many reasons why these people have been living in streets, but if one wants to get out of it there are enough and plenty of ways to do so. all one needs is some courage..

Saturday, August 25, 2007

traditions - like it or not...

hmmmm.. are we bound to abide by them or follow them.. isnt it one's own choice.. people have their own opinion in following traditions and i believe everyone's allowed or entitled to their own opinion whether it's commonly accepted or not. especially family traditions when it comes to special occasions, weddings etc etc. isnt it the couple's and their parents opinions what matters or do we have to listen and do what the extended family, aunties, granmas' want.. i found it interesting how sri lankans including myself sometimes or most of the times worry or think too much about what people around us or our family think about our actions regardless of how big of an impact the action has.. having lived by myself on the other side of the world since my teens i believe i think at least a bit differently but the sri lankan-ness in me always pops out and kills the rebel in me ..

i should stop now since i'm not making any sense.. here's hoping to write more on this later...

Thursday, August 23, 2007

twists and turns I

three months have gone by.. rather three and half months, as an intern in a field that i initially wanted to be in but two-three years down the road i almost hate it with a passion. the greatest experience i got being an intern and it didn't take long for me to fathom that this isn't what i would enjoy doing.

has this happened to anyone or is it only me who feel the pain and the agony of being or better yet forced to be in a field that I don't enjoy and hate to move forward by learning.. it'd make me feel better if such confusion is commonly seen or felt amongst us..

life takes twists and turns and and i'd hate to do or be in a career that i wont enjoy. that won't do any good to me nor to my colleagues nor the company that i'd work in.. while i patiently wait and look forward to where my life takes me in this long hard curvy road, my heart still cries out for the long lost (or yet to be found) something in my life..


just as I thought I'm doing my final project the semester after next, it only took me less than half an hour to change my mind to doing the final project the coming semester. and soon i realise that i'm a tad late to submit a project proposal which is supposed to be submitted two weeks prior to first week/day of classes, and yesterday was THE DAY or rather the deadline, for proposal submission.

An email this way and one the other way saves me from being kicked out of the final project class! voila i get a reply back with an extension but no date on email. 3/4 of pages of pleading and excuses of all kinds and two lines of 'alright keep working on it'. what do i assume as the deadline hmmm i wonder... haha

i was thinking more like i could stay 'til the monday of next week but nooo.. the student in me wont budge at least a bit, and forces me to start on the proposal. and there i was proposing last night, wrote a whole load of garbage courtesy of mr.gates. I think i'm done with it.. two pages of garbage isnt all that bad, when you think of the big ass project I gotta finish at the end of the semester..

good luck to me!

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

whispering a hello to the blogsphere..

Hello world..?

needless to say I'm new to the blogsphere and obviously to the sri lankan blogsphere which I often roam and wander around during my spare time (?!?!).. when i read others' blogs i often had thoughts pouring in to my head thinking ahhuhh i could write about this/that etc etc. but now when i became a proud owner of a tiny little blog nothing comes in to mind to write, to even name my first post to start with.. hence it's the very generic hello my fellow bloggers..

alrighty.. enough of mumbling or not making any sense at all..

hello to everyone..