the second job...

Since school's over, I started getting bored.. even though I had a full time work week.. It's amazing how easy people get tired and bored of things.. especially me.. no wonder I hesitate to get a tattoo.. (not to mention I'm a chicken with the needles)..

Anyway, the full work week is busy, but mundane.. everyday seems same, with different shit to deal with. May be that's what work is. Weekends weren't that interesting either.. well since it's summer time, it is.. there's stuff to do outside and all.. which I did/do..

For a while I was contemplating on whether I should take on a second job. One of the days from the weekend seems to be spent doing nothing anyway.. so why not take another job just for one day.. time well spent, I learn something, and also extra cash (now that's always a good thing), and especially with high expenses past few weeks, that seemed like a great idea.. so after some deep thought (or may be not) I decided I will look into a very relaxing, calm, quiet position.. which I got.. and it fits perfect.. only few hours on a Saturday.. with a great view of the water.. I couldn't resist that now could I..

It's my first day at work.. and I'm loving it already. coz look what i'm doing sitting here journaling while getting paid.. mmmm..

back from the la la land...

I'm back back back.. i dont know for how long, but today I thought, I am visiting my blog.. I didn't forget you my dearest virtual journal, it's only because other things kept me busy.. I know it's not a good enough reason..

absence was very busy and was an eventful time... hence would be the reason I couldn't so much as to sit down to jot down couple of words at least..

while away, your's truly wore the square hat and the black gown for the first time in her life, and walked on stage to complete the four and something odd years of agony and pain that almost all of us go through.. and it was a happy ending despite the sleepless nights.

The parents paid a visit to this end of the world as well.. entertaining them left me dead every night crawling into bed.. had to take time off from work.. and all the works.. dinners here lunches there.. shopping here.. site seeing there.. you know the rest.. oh well people it's all good. The best thing was the food and of course less money spent :D and more saved ha ha..

Saving the rest for another post.. hope you all are still safe with great health..

memories...

you know the thing about it is, that it doesn't stop for no one.. sitting on my bed with the sound of the laptop fan along with my typing, everything seems to have taken a step back or stopped..


memories..


moments..


thousands of them.. some faded away and some still at the far corner of your mind within reach.. some you wish faded away and some you wish they didn't.. trying... trying so hard to remember or to forget.. why..


painful they may sound.. cherished they are.. not wishing anything was different.. as life takes you to happy places.. pinching and poking along the way..

farewell dolphin boy

the only deserving survivor this season was voted out last night.. he was almost unbeatable and needless to say he was my favourite.. great eye candy too btw :P

I'm pretty sad.. i kno it's not like i'm winning the million dollars right..

he swam like a dolphin.. and will surely be missed.. wish Ozzy could continue on but oh well..

you know what I was thinking, survivor being very entertaining as it is, it's one of the tv shows that teach people very bad morals like; lying, conning, cheating, misleading, etc..

Ozzy fan signing off...

Recreational mishap

After forcing myself to come up with some kind of new year resolution, here I wrote about my step towards a pinch of recreation.. and trying to be fit as some may call.. after very random times a week, i'm still hanging in there in the loop and dragging myself to the rec centre.. regardless of the fact that the fitness-fairy is looking at me or not..

anyhoo.. out of the norms I thought I should go for a swim on a Saturday morning. quite chilly outside but meh, who cares.. I go for a swim.. swim more than I would on a weekday, jump in the hot tub for a little longer than usual as well (rather 8-10mins), and off I go for a shower.. While in the shower I felt light headed but didn't really care. Went to the locker room and start getting dressed.. i start blacking out.. things were becoming unclear and was becoming grey.. I knew it was bad news, I came out of the changing room and dragged myself to the benches near the lockers where more people would hang out.. unconsiously sit/lie down on a bench.. asking some lady for help..

creepyness..

I didn't completely pass out.. I was aware of everything happening around me.. by the time the first-aid girl came running I was getting back to normal.. low blood sugar may be she said?:S and gave me some gatorade sorta drink.. may be I didn't cool off the hot-tub effect.. luckily I didn't have to drive back home..

quite eventful and scary at the same time..

of the knots

relationships are bitches.. they feel/look good when things are going great, but is freakishly bitter when things fuck up. the most interesting is when parents have a complete opinion on the kid's relationship status.. when single, not just rents but everyone else around them and you have something to say... not that they didn't have an opinion before.. they did even when you were in a relationship. but when single it seems more.. be a marriage broker.. hey my neice's cousin's brother-in-law is single too you know.. and looking.. so who cares..?!?!

i have no interest in gettin married yet and move in to the suburbs or anything of that sort.. just as mother seem to want me to..

I don't think settling down is as bitter as it may sound.. but boy don't they make it feel like it's the last thing you want to do before jumping off a cliff..

random quote

I heard...

"when I look at the love that you have for each other despite the things you are going through.. just seems that.. sometimes love just doesn't last the way you hope it will but.. if you get through that pain.. it'll last in ways that are more precious.. "
- Shane of the L word..